One Step At A Time!

My husband and I really enjoy watching The Office together.  I love Pam and Jim.  A few weeks ago, it was the birth episode.  We DVR'd it as usual and we let it sit.  Each time we would go to choose something to watch from our DVR, we would skip it.  It was kind of an unspoken understanding between us.  Neither of us wanted to do that to ourselves or each other.  Last night, we bit the bullet!

After watching a few Til Death (which is soooo friggen funny!)...I was in a good mood from laughing so I figured hey what the hell.  My husband gave me that look like "We are doing this now, aren't we?".  I was prepared to cry....I really was...after the explosion of tears I had after watching Kourtney Kardashian give birth on Keeping Up With the Kardashians....I was fully prepared to have another. 

Why would I do that to myself, you might wonder. 

I had to! 

Why didn't I just delete the show?

 I couldn't!

 I can't live in a world where I have to start monitoring my TV shows for babies...because then I would never have anything to watch. 

So we watched it.....

...and guess what ...THE SHOW DIDN'T MAKE ME CRY! 

I made it about 45 minutes into the show without even getting teary eyed.  I only got teary eyed when my husband turned to me after watching the part where the baby wouldn't stop crying and asked "Is that what they really sound like?".  The flooding pain and realization that I am keeping him from hearing that noise was too much to bear.  I took all that emotion I was feeling....all those tears I wanted to cry and I leaned over and kissed him.  Not in a sexy baby-making type way...but in a "I love you and I want you to know that I will do anything for you to be able to hear that noise" way.  No words were spoken.  I'm not even sure if he knows what it meant but the love and admiration I have for that man, replaced any of the tears I had on deck. 

At the end of the show, he turned to me and said "YAY!  NO TEARS!" 

I did it! 

It was a big feat and I conquered it. 

Now don't get the idea that I am going to be rushing out to thousands of baby showers now...because I'm not THAT ready....

One step at a time people! 


Jen @ After The Alter said...

I was so scared to watch the show too...I cried once at the end when she got the baby to nurse. It was just such a sweet moment and her face was just priceless when she realized that she was able to make the baby stop crying. But other than that I made it through too!

Holly said...

One step at a time! Love it, and I loved that episode! I did get a tiny bit teary but I didn't break down like I thought I might. You and DH will get to hear that noise soon and I know it will be the sweetest sound ever!

Jessica said...

So proud of you!!! I can't wait until we get to set up play dates :)

The (Type A) Nightmare said...

Good for you!!! Definitely an accomplishment. I've never watched The Office; however, now that I'm all caught up on Grey's anatomy (having watched all 5 seasons and keeping current with the 6th... all during the last month), I guess it's time to find a new show. Haha.

Beautiful Mess said...

YAY good for you, sweetie! I'm glad you enjoyed the show without tears and got to have a nice kiss with your husband. One step at a time is JUST fine! You go girl!

liberalgranolagirl said...

So proud of you! I got teary eyed reading about you not getting teary eyed :-p