9.11.2009

8 years later.....

I was 21 years old .....It's been 8 years and I still get that sick feeling in my stomach as I watched the unimaginable on the TV......8 years and I still can't comprehend why someone would want to do that.....I woke up to my father screaming....as I stumbled out of bed, figuring my parents were fighting...and as I started to walk down the stairs and wipe the sleep from my eyes....I saw my mom....solemn face...."New York is under attack"

...WHAT?? .....NEW YORK? I grew up in NEW YORK....my family was still in NEW YORK....briefly an image of tankers rolling into the city, just like out of a movie, flashed through my mind as I tried to process what she was saying........then my mind flashed to that day in Feb, back in 93, as I laid on the couch home from school and watched how they tried to take the towers down that time....They tried but didn't succeed.....I stared at the TV that day in 93 in horror of what was happening across the river....

.....we had no idea what was to come.....

I ran to the TV...it was still dark out (I lived in AZ)....as the image of the planes hitting the towers was played OVER and OVER again on the screen...Then I stood there in complete and utter disbelief as I watched the one of the towers begin to crumble....My jaw was to the floor and I couldn't squeak words out.....The monstrosity of those towers in the architecture of the NY skyline was breathtaking enough but the sight of them crumbling was too much to bear......I remember thinking what the hell is happening here.....and then we heard...two more planes.....

The panic set in after that about where my cousin was....She worked close to there in the city ...Frantic phone calls were placed...but yet we couldn't get through ...it wasn't until a couple hours later that we heard she was OK.....she witnessed the whole thing ....she was alive...but would she ever really be OK?....Would we all ever really be OK???....She walked over the bridge covered in soot to get home to her babies.....

....We always joke about how small Staten Island is ...."Everyone knows everyone"....and its so true....because if you weren't directly affected by 9/11...you know at least one person that was.....

I remember there being a period of uncertainty when we didn't know if the worst was over yet, as I thought of what could be going on in the skies above us.....And as those towers fell, and our hearts were smashed into a billion pieces, our patriotism rose and for one moment of time...we ALL stood together ....We were all on the same page....We were all New Yorkers that day ...We were all Americans.....

So on this day 8 years later...I remember all those feelings...I remember the ones who lost their mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, wives, husbands, children, etc. I pray that they find peace in their memories and know that today....the whole country is grieving with them....

.......9/11/01 I WILL NEVER FORGET!

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