8.28.2009

The stars are aligning....

After what has to be one of the worst weeks for me emotionally (between the HSG, The "insensitive relatives", and major money and lack of job stress), I finally feel like I can breathe a sigh of relief...The stars are starting to align......

Dr. Godfathers nurse called me yesterday (the one who is my new BFF-because we talk so much). All tests results are back....everything looks OK....His recommended plan of treatment is IUI with Clomid and Ovidrel. My heart crumbled....we didn't expect to be recommended for an IUI right away...we were planning on doing the boogie-down-at-home method first....Nurse BFF said he would allow that for ONE MONTH but then he feels that an IUI is the most effective way for us. Hubby and I discussed it...we were going to do the one month...and then probably have to wait til the new year to start the IUI's...my heart was broken...

Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse yesterday, I found out my insurance wasn't going to cover my injectables (the ovidrel), add this to the fact that I seem to be pretty much unemployable as a teacher and my sister is getting married in Dec and I have to throw a shower and bachelorette party for her...I had reached my limit. My mom called yesterday to talk to me and as she was asking questions, It all just came to a head...I started sobbing....I mean full-on-sobbing-like-someone-died.....I couldn't catch my breath and I was crying so hard that I was literally going to be sick. ALL the stress of the week had reached it toll.....I just want a baby....Why is this so hard? I felt totally lost.....

I'm not the type of person to ask my parents for money...I know they struggle too and I have a sister and a brother so I just don't go there....so when my mom called me back yesterday to offer to help....I had to fight back tears again.....She told me that they both understand just how much this means to us and that they want to help in anyway they can. I have always known my parents were amazing people....but this....I have no words....there isn't enough words in the English language to truly tell them how they have raised my spirits and gave me hope...

Mom and I talked for awhile last night trying to figure out what to do....I decided the best thing to do would be to move UP my sisters shower by THREE WEEKS (yes you read that right)...This allows me to get the shower over with at the end of Sept...and do an IUI in Oct (and Nov. and Dec. if needed)....As of last night there was soo much that needed to be ironed out....but today it just all fell into place.....

  • Nurse BFF thought it was a great idea...so I will start the second pack of birth control after the first one is done so we can control my period....I have to call her back on day one of the new pack to start to schedule out my plan......

  • My sister ended up being free that weekend, which of course when you are throwing a shower for the bride..you need the bride to be there....

  • The other girl in the wedding party...my sisters best friend...was planning to come to the shower in Oct....she THANKFULLY hadn't purchased her plane tickets yet ...and the new weekend works better for her.....

  • My AWESOME friend (ComplicatedMama) who is making the AMAZING invites for me.. is working to get them done ASAP.... (BTW......check out her website at www.domeafavorcori.com! She is doing the Tiffany's invites for my sister and they seriously kick ass....She is extremely talented and very well priced...)

  • And my other amazing friend Chef Bef....who offered to make a Tiffany's style cake ....is also going to be able to make it to the shower that weekend......

I swear I feel like a ton of weight is lifted off my shoulders.......I just bought my plane ticket and am in panic mode to get everything ready in 4 weeks for her shower......

But the stars are aligning...and I'm feeling really good about it.......THANKS MOM AND DAD =)

3 comments:

Fertility Chick said...

Yay! Sounds like everything is falling into place. Sending lots of good luck and wishes away for the cycle ahead.

PS - Checked out the link and I LOVE the invites you're getting for your sister's shower! They're gorgeous!

PCOSChick said...

That is awesome that everything is coming together! I am so happy for you :)

Lots of hugs & baby wishes coming you way!

Beautiful Mess said...

Awww how sweet! Before I got to the part about your mom and dad helping you and hubby out, I was racking my brain to think of fundraiser for you to. Even though your time is limited, I thought maybe SOMETHING could work. Then you said your mom and dad are going to help you. How amazing!

The stars are aligning for you and I couldn't be happier for you!
*HUGS*