8.20.2009

Let the Games Begin....

Let the games begin!

This morning I went for my very first morning monitoring appointment to have my blood work done, get an insulin resistance test, and to help my doc by participating in some research he is doing on infertility. When I say morning monitoring, they ain't kidding.....the hours are 6 to 7:30 AM!!!!! WAY TO EARLY FOR NEEDLES!!!! I was actually nervous walking into the office...part of it I'm sure was the unknown. I had never been part of the morning monitoring crew before and I wasn't quite sure where to check in and stuff (that all went very smoothly)...the other part of me was nervous because of the amount of people coming out with those little cotton balls with the tape over it that pulls off each arm hair in its way. It was 6:15 in the morning when I got there and I passed five people coming out of the office with their "badge" (the cotton balls and tape). When I got inside there, was MORE people leaving and five people waiting in front of me. I became incredibly anxious......I found myself looking at each person wondering HOW long they were doing this...HOW many cycles have they tried...HOW many times have they gotten bad news??? I don't care what anyone says....I will never feel more bonded to anyone in a random place then with the other people sitting in the waiting room at the fertility office! The term "waiting" room brings out a whole new meaning........

As I waited for my name to be called, I just took everything in....I watched the ladies behind the front desk as they took care of patients and I watched the nurses come in and call names.....As crazy as it seems, its like one large dysfunctional family! Hell...I have spoken to my doctors nurse more times in the last few weeks than I have spoken to some of my friends.....I still find it hysterical that I have to actually call her and say "Today I got my period" and its like an accomplishment......

So my FSH level came back at a 5.5...and I have no idea what that means so if anyone knows please enlighten me.....The nurse told me to start the birth control today just until all the testing is finished and then WE WILL BE READY TO START A CYCLE!! I am still INCREDIBLY nervous about my test on Monday.....I am terrified of the imagined pain I will be feeling.....A little cramping I can deal with......but if it feels like my ovaries are going to burst...I think I'll either a) pass out from the pain....or b) just die!!! This is going to be the longest-shortest 4 days ever!

Tomorrow I am preparing to attend a large family party where I am SURE we will be bombarded with " When are you having kids?" or " Are you pregnant yet?" ....Seriously, Thank god for an open bar....CHEERS!

Maybe I should just wear a shirt stating " No, I am not pregnant...Yes, we want children and No I don't want yours"

3 comments:

Beautiful Mess said...

Good luck at the party hon! Take your phone and maybe you can Twitter from it ;o)

Sending you SO much good juju for your cycle! ACK I'm getting excited for you! That's weird huh?
*HUGS*

jenicini said...

That is way too early for needles! When they ask when you are going to have kids, tell them that you and hubby are planning to go do it in the car in a few minutes. Ask for luck while you're at it. LOL

Lost in Space said...

FSH is used to gauge ovarian reserve and anything under 6 is considered excellent. When things start to get above 10 is where it can be harder to stimulate. Yours sounds great!

Thanks for the comment on my letting go post. I'm sorry that was what you had to come across as you start your first cycle! Wishing you all the best with your cycle.